I found a blog today that gave me a very humbling experience and I felt I needed to share. After 5 years of trying for a little one the couple got pregnant. They did what any excited and over-joyed parent would do.. baby shower, kissing the belly, talking to the belly, decorating the room, buying everything they could think of, and planning what outfit to bring their bundle of joy home in. One day before delivery they found out their precious child's heart had stopped beating. After he was born they dressed him, bathed him, loved him and they were grateful for him. They were grateful to God that they were given such a perfect little spirit.
Today for me was another day in my busy life... taking care of Jordan and cursing as he got into toilet paper, toothpaste, and made messes with his food and everything he could get his little hands on. I found myself frustrated with him as he whined and cried for his blankies and when he wouldn't go down for a nap. I felt excited and anxious for his nap to come.
As I sat down and was blog hopping I stumbled upon those sacred words and it was like a slap in the face. Hello... I am so lucky to have those sticky fingers all over my couch and those milk kisses. I am lucky to be able to hold and kiss my son everyday, to bathe him, get him dressed, chase him around the house, and share his most triumphant moments. So I must ask all of you have you been grateful lately? Have you looked at your life and been grateful for the most wonderful gift in the whole world or have you been like me. I know this feeling will go away but I can guarantee that tonight I will go into my sons room and watch him sleep for a little while and tomorrow I will treasure those moments of q-tips and toilet paper scattered from the bathroom to the living room. I will hug him a little tighter and kiss him a little more often. I will laugh with him and play with him and cuddle him when he's sad.
If you want to hear the touching story I put her blog on mine and it's called the healing journey and trust me have the tissue close by.